Growing up... kinda sucks

Since it’s summertime and (most) of us are home for the summer…we are all either working, working, or working.  Let’s be honest, who is going to fund our fun when we get back to school?  But, have you looked on the walls at the posters or pictures that are hung up on your wall?  Or thought of the good and bad times that we have all experienced in our lifetime?  Most of us are in our 20s and are 90s babies (oh gosh, way to make us all feel super old), but we have years under our belt in this thing called LIFE.  And no, I’m not talking about the game of Life, but the experiences that we have all had. 

We have lost and gained friends or have been at our lowest—these walls in your childhood bedroom have seen all of this.  I was in the process of cleaning out my bedroom and the walls from high school, and there are certain things that I cannot get rid of.  I can’t get rid of my Glee posters or my shrine of awards hung up on my walls…why is growing up SO hard?  I am working two jobs this summer and I walked out of my room the other day and looked at my dad, “Why is adulting so hard?” and he just said, “You’re an adult.”  How am I supposed to say I’m an adult when I am a student (that’s a job right there) and have a One Direction poster hung up on my wall?  That group disbanded two years ago…okay, they didn’t disband, but their best mate left (Zayn).  I don’t want to classify myself as an adult at 21.

In a year, most of us will have been graduated and moving on with our lives.  I don’t think I’m ready to move on and leave this 12x12 room that I have really grown up in.  I have come to terms that my education will be continuing or I will be starting a new job…and leaving the area code that I have only ever known.  I know I’m not the only 21 y/o that doesn’t want to grow up and leave behind my “Hannah’s Parking Only” sign.  As I’m writing this masterpiece, I am tearing up at the fact that the future is here and so present in my life.  As we grow up, it’s hard to part with the past. 

But, oh man, I am so excited about the future.  I look forward to the days that I will wake up and be content with my life like I am right now.  I don’t want to be content for the rest of my life: I want challenges, lessons and lots of happiness.  We should all want happiness, right?  We should all hope that our worst enemies survive this thing called ‘life’.  Life is a crazy thing, right?  But, as some of us leave home in the next few years, keep those memories close to your heart.  Remember those times you woke up in that room on Christmas morning or calling your best friend at 3 A.M. about a stupid crush: your life was built in your childhoom room.  Just know that your life is leaving those memories, but you have so much joy ahead of you.  And if you don’t want to, know that an adult at 21 can have a lot of fun, too.  Life isn’t all about paying bills or making money…there’s so much more in life than that.

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